What is it like to raise children after you experienced and endured trauma and it’s consequences for most of your own young life?
I can still see that imperious insect looking down from its mushroom stool demanding that Alice identify herself while simultaneously spewing out letters formed from exhaled smoke – “W-h-o-o-o R-r-r-r U-u-u-u?”
Hannah Hilgeman is a contributor to the online health community The Mighty. She writes about her physical disability: postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome (POTS), her mental health disability: borderline personality disorder (BPD), and life at the intersection of these two chronic conditions.
In 1967, a young Hungarian refugee sent to live in Britain planned on ending his life. “At 16 I was a very depressed adolescent, I had suicidal ideation, I had suicidal plans.”
The professor had sharpened his commentary to the point where he “had the entire lecture theatre howling with laughter over these freaky people and their wonky personalities”.
Studies have shown that nearly half of people who die by suicide visited their primary health care provider in the month before their death. Routine screening for depression can uncover suicidal thoughts, but clearly that’s not effective enough…